Turmoil

Well it seems like forever since I've done some blogging but I had to come back to it because I don't think I've ever experienced so many emotions going on at once in my soul. And I've no one to talk to them about, and no way to resolve them so if I don't let them out somehow I feel I might explode, or worse.......... I mean what do you do if the person you really want to talk to is the one person you just can't talk to? That sucks right? I mean you name it and I can guarantee I'm feeling it right now. Pain, sadness, loss, confusion, grief, anger, loneliness, just generally overwhelmed by it all. My favorite part of each day is when I get to crawl into bed and fall asleep - though recently it takes my brain hours to finally shut down and it just wakes up again a couple of hours later and won't switch off. So throughout the day I am constantly exhausted and honestly not much use to myself or anyone else. So day by day my life is slowly falling apart and I feel unable to stop it. Fun times huh?